Sunday 8 April 2012

shuffleISLAM :: Kembalilah wahai hati

Demi Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui,
Aku berlindung denganMu dari segala kerosakan, kekacauan, kerugian, kesedihan mahupun kealpaan.
Aku berlindung denganMu dari meminta atau mengharapkan kepada sesuatu atau sesiapa pun selain dariMu,
Aku berlindung denganMu dari hati yang meminta-minta sesuatu yang tiada hak bagiku,
atau dari perasaan yang berbolak-balik dan kekeliruan,

Demi Tuhan Yang menciptakanku,
Aku meminta kepadaMu kasih yang tidak putus,
Dan laluan dan jalan keluar paling baik dlm setiap perkara yang berlaku dalam hidupku,

Ya Allah,
Jika aku kesesatan, tunjukkanlah aku jalan kembali yang terbaik,
Bimbinglah hatiku menghampirimu sehingga, tiada suatu pun dapat menggoyahkan hidupku,
Sudilah menjadi temanku di kala susah dan senang wahai Ya Rahmaan, Ya Raheem,
dan angkatlah martabatku di sisimu.

Ya Allah,
Jika aku kealpaan, kembalikan aku ke jalan yang kau redhai,
Cahayai jalanku yang suram dan sepi,
Sesungguhnya hanya dengan berdzikir kepadaMu, hati ini akan sentiasa tenang.


Kembali kepada Allah 080412


Reference : http://www.fuadlatip.com/v1/2009/08/berlatih-kembali-kepada-allah/


Kematian itu datang bila-bila masa. Berlatihlah agar kita benar-benar bersedia untuk mati.
Ketika kita baring ingin tidur, berlatihlah untuk kembali kepada Allah SWT.  Pastikan kita mempunyai wudhuk. Rasai jiwa kita menuju kepada Allah SWT. Lupakan niat ingin tidur dengan menggantikannya dengan rasa kembali kepada Allah SWT sambil beristighfar memohon keampunan dan berzikir mengagungkan Allah SWT. Apabila rasa benar-benar tunduk pada Allah SWT, ucapkanlah dua kalimah syahadah.
Kemudian rasai jiwa kita keluar daripada jasad perlahan-lahan bermula dari kaki perlahan-lahan naik hingga ke leher kita. Serahkan kembali hak Allah SWT iaitu segala harta benda, anak, isteri/suami kepada Allah SWT. Tumpukan kepada jiwa yang akan meninggalkan jasad secara perlahan-lahan.
Teruskan merasai yang kita akan kembali kepada Allah sehingga kita ditidurkan oleh Allah SWT. Jika kita benar-benar kembali kepada Allah SWT iaitu ajal sampai ketika itu, Alhamdulillah kerana kita melepaskan nafas terakhir kita dengan benar-benar berserah pada Allah SWT.
InshaAllah, mengikut pengalaman semasa melakukannya mula-mula dahulu, mulanya kita masih terikat dengan segala apa yang kita miliki. Kita berasa sangat bimbang dan gementar. Saya seringkali terbuka mata dan tidak mahu melakukan lagi kerana jantung berdegup laju kerana bimbang benar-benar akan mati.
Tetapi perlahan-lahan, apabila latihan selalu dilakukan, kita akan berasa benar-benar bersedia untuk kembali kepada Allah SWT bila-bila masa sahaja. Kita tidak akan terikat dengan apa yang ada disekeliling kita melainkan Allah SWT. Kita melepaskan diri daripada terikat dengan harta benda, anak, isteri/suami dan segalanya di dunia ini walaupun di mana kita berada dan sentiasa bersedia untuk kembali kepada Allah SWT. InshaAllah.
Latihan ini boleh dilakukan ketika rehat sebentar setelah penat bekerja atau ketika duduk-duduk santai.
[nota] Saya menaiki motosikal ke tempat kerja setiap hari. Saya bersedia apa jua kemungkinan yang berlaku di dalam perjalanan saya pergi dan pulang daripada tempat kerja. Saya berdoa agar Allah SWT sentiasa melindungi isteri dan anak saya. Kemudian saya hanya ingat dan sedar akan Allah SWT dengan penuh penyerahan secara total. Saya mampu lakukan kerana saya telah serahkan anak dan isteri saya kepada Allah SWT.
Semoga di saat nafas terakhir kita, kita tetap teguh bersaksi dengan PENUH KESEDARAN bahawa tiada Tuhan melainkan Allah SWT dan Nabi Muhammad SAW adalah Rasul Allah SWT.



Wednesday 4 April 2012

shuffleLEISURE :: Rejuvenating Brighton!

It has been stormy for few months. I tried hard to get it all over and mould life back to how it was. The stable, earthy me. Finally, I felt a bit better after deep thoughts put up in mind.

As the Easter holiday started, finally I got the chance to rest my mind. Miss Diana and I decided to go to Brighton, a city near to Cardiff.

It was a big surprise that miss Natalia, my Colombian friend doing also the International Architectural Regeneration and Development (IARD) in Oxford Brookes University was also on board! Natalia and I has been a very close friend since she first came and started the course. Was definitely a great thing having her around for the trip!

After 3.5 hours of journey from Oxford, we reached Brighton. Surprised by the weather that was really gloomy and shady, we somehow thought its going to be bright and happy. Diana mentioned how she brought sunglass and shade to prepare the glare. But I instinctly felt that it was going to be a bit chilly and cloudy, and it was!

Later, we walked slowly by the bay, into Brighton Pier which placed the information centre, some gaming booth, fish and chips restaurants and an amusement park at the end of the pier. It was all built on steel frame structure, with some of the structure that touches the sea were corroded. That's what i learn that day, what time can turn things into. Steel corroded, and... people changed.

The sea was blue-ish, a glance of sea green tried to emerge out of the blue-ish background. A simple glance that created mystery to the observer. That's what i think about ocean, it was deep, and mysterious. You've heard how beautiful it is, you've learn how it become a huge heaven for unique, bizzare creatures through books and television. How beautiful the ocean creatures dance lightly, firmly swim and glow some light in the darkest part of the ocean. Its like the treasure box of the earth that contains all the miracles and wonders of the world. I always thought, and feel deep in my heart.

However, every treasure has always been guarded. Because its too valuable to be seen, there are natural danger that was set up to protect it from just anyone. The high-pressure air condition internally, and the harmful creature was designed to protect it from any stranger. Not just anyone could feel and experience it, knowing how beautiful it is on the other side of the world. The great news is, some brave man have successfully swam and dove to the deepest heart of the ocean for a glance, recorded it and share the experience with the whole world.

We passed through some stalls selling sea food. Natalia suggested me to try oyster, but i am never brave enough to try uncook food. Was never my culture, nor it suits my taste. Heard it was very nice, but i prefer it to be well cooked before eating, since I'm prone to food poisoning. And food poisoning was a big threat that I really dislike. Nauzubillah.

Later me and Diana decided to just stay at the beach. I just cant wait to sit and lay on the gravel beach. Its not sand, that's what makes it unique! Red, orange, grey and black-ish stone unlike other sandy beaches. Subhanallah!

The sound of the wave just drew me to a different atmosphere. Was always the sound that I really love, that erase all the depressing thing that I face in life at the moment. It just wash away all the bad thoughts and leave me smiling peacefully and gaining back energy. Really rejuvenating! :))

Had some home made lunch packed eaten. Later drew a sketch of a view at Brighton with colour pencil-watercolour touch up. It was cool to have Brighton sea water used to water-colour the sketch. Felt so 'local', reminding me definitely to the place I drew it. Few girls came running towards me as I was water-colouring the sketch and said, 'Wow, its beautiful? Did you use the sea water to colour it?'. I noded. They're really cute. Three sisters, blonded hair, blue-ish eyes, just girlish cute! Again they asked, 'Are you a professional artist?'  Their questions made me laughed full-heartedly and simply answered, 'No, I'm just an architecture student.'

Deep in my heart they touched me meaningfully, reminded me to the good old days when primary and high school friends use to say how beautiful my drawings are, and how they envy me everytime i won a drawing competition. How odd i that now I feel that the sketches I drew now wasnt as pretty as how it was back then. The previous drawings are illustrated and drew sincerely, without much thought of how people might view it. It was designed according to how i really felt at the moment, and really mean it. In contrast to now, that I felt more controlled and worried if it doesnt turn out well. I sometimes envy my past, that I hope to come back as the same brave girl who wear those passionate shoes that everyone envied. But I'm sure, as I was born again in my age of 25, I'll reappear into a better woman, emerge beautifully, facing life bravely with strength and sincerity. InshaAllah! I hope you (readers) would feel the same. Lets get encourage and dont give up in life! Even how hard you fall, how frustrated you are, lets jump higher next time!

The cold sea breeze made me realise how long Diana has been patiently waiting for me finishing my piece. I still got the first draft, but simply put my signature on just so she can take a picture of it as she wanted. I shall finish it later as  i reached home, i thought.

This short but meaningful trip to Brighton was great! It teaches me a lot of things in life, looking into the past that I am always scared off, and valuing how i could improve it in the future. I really hope all of us had this experience that really touches our heart, that we found values in life, at any circumstances we face. May Allah bless. Ameen.
                                                 The unfinished sketch on Brighton stone beach
                                                   The sketch with some touch-up done at home